I wonder...why I feel messed up..
I can't think...and I hate it..
this is supposed to be easy..but I feel like I've lost the sense of feeling...
I could cry when I'm actually happy, and I smile when I am in pain
my head is messed up...
and I hate it!!
I know I'm wrong, I'm not supposed to fall for you, the you who is taken..the you who's not available, the you who is so different from me...It's wrong...it's not right...it's not Ok...
I guess the butterfly flew at the wrong time, in the wrong place, and from the wrong person...those butterflies that I always love, coz it always give me the sensation of liking someone...but with you, it all feels wrong...the spark was a mistake...and now it burns me slowly...
I keep telling my self that you're impossible...you're different...you're taken..you're not available....you're not right...you're the wrong guy at the right time....keep telling myself all these things....so it knows when to stop, how to stop...and to not hoping more than this...
but you....why you seem like you don't care with all of these?! are you just playing your game? am I just another new character in your game? the one whom you can played around with?
why haven't you mentioned your girlfriend?
why haven't you told me that you're taken?
why keep giving me hope that won't come true?
what are you trying to do?
I hate it...I hate you...I hate the situation..I hate the time...I hate the butterflies..I hate the sparks...I hate the moment...I hate it...
most of all...I hate myself for knowing that you're impossible..yet I still let me fall for you.......
*sigh*
